Holy Profanity

Disclaimer: If you are offended by curse words being used in the same sentence as our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ...this is not the blog post for you. Move on now. Seriously.

This afternoon I sat down to write a business plan - which I have yet to do - and I really wanted to think about my goals. I ended up just typing out my raw thoughts. My brain is a cluster. I read back over it and laughed at myself. But I SHOWED UP! Here's me talking to myself. Awwwww Lawwwdy.

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Shannon. Why the fuck are you sitting here acting like you don’t know what your goals are!! Why are you sitting here acting like you don’t know how to create a business plan? You FUCKING KNOW. You know what you want!!

What do I want!!??!

I want to SHOW my boys what it means to live a life full of abundance and love rather than scarcity and fear. I want them to REALLY understand that they can do ANYTHING they set their mind to and that it’s OK to go against the cultural norms. In fact, it’s AMAZING!

Self-doubt. I’m shitting my pants over the money and it needs to stop. It stops RIGHT NOW. God will provide. Lord, show me how this works. I followed you and I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m doing it anyway and it’s a HUGE RISK. It’s time to get to work. What. Does. That. Mean???

What makes me happy? I’m just rambling random shit at this point. Procrastinating. Looking for clues because I don’t want to dig deep. Why not? Why is it scary?

MY. FUCKING. GOALS:

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Buhler.

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Buhler.

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I reach for my phone. I don’t pick it up.

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Fucking get it out, Shannon!!! God this is exhausting. Don’t say God.

To build a successful and sustainable life-coaching business empowering others to live their most authentic lives. To prove to myself that I can do it and SHOW my family and those around me that it is possible to live God's will and do what your heart desires to matter your circumstances. To gain value and training so that I can help others at a higher level. To learn business strategies. To be a part of an amazing network and surround myself with people of the same mindset. To become ICF Certified.

Balls. It’s out and why am I judging it now? Why am I sitting here asking myself if those are “The right” goals?

The shit will get clearer. Keep showing up.

Ok. bye.